hello.
went to hospital todayy.
did go there yesterday to visit atuk.
but then it was the wrong ward and the nurse said there's no one under the name of my atuk.
so then we went to visit abang hairul's aunt.
and went to simpang to eat after that.
i love my cheese fries please.

as i said went to hospital in the evening to visit atuk.
the right ward this time.
he is still in sicu after operation wee in the morning.
stayed there for like 3 hours.
when i went into the room he was sleeping.
ohmygod it makes me feel like crying.
i feel so sad for him.
my sister and aunt was on his other side.
the reast waiting outside as it is an icu ward.
so i looked at him.
i wanted to cry.
all the cables and wires and tubes connected to him.
even he cant breathe on his own.
ya allah.
and it reminds me of his late wife,my nenek.
seriously lahh.
like ohmygod i cant do anything to help.
i feel so useless and so angry man.
so angry that i can only stand there and do nothing.
just to pray for him though.

reason:
doctor said that his intestine burst and the faeces became toxins to his blood.
this happened a few days ago.so the burst might have closed itself up.
and then it burst again.and then sth sth about ulcer.
blablabla they have to take all his faeces out.
so yeah he cant talk but he can still write.
so whatever he wants to tell he writes it down and we're there to help.

oh and tomorrow i guess ill be having tuition with zat.
see how first.
and then after that i may be going to hospital to visit atuk.

please i have no mood to talk to you okayy.
there's no chemistry between me and you.
i dont feel anything at all.
so leave me alone please.

taaa.
p.s zat you better make it tomorrow ah boh.